With Love.

Hi All,

I found myself crying tonight for the people who were not getting into the top 25 of Masterchef and thought that maybe it was time for me to write this blog and begin dealing with why I am actually sad.

Tonight’s Blog was originally going to be about ANZAC Day and what it means to me (It was also going to be done 2 weeks ago), however the past 2 weeks have been a lot different to how I thought they would be and when I started crying I figured it was time to start writing about something different.

For those I have talked to personally, you would know that I was hoping to be back in Thailand by now and I am clearly not there. I do still very much want to be back in Thailand ASAP (Please God let someone buy my car), however I am also much more comfortable than I was with not being there yet.  I am coming to understand more completely than ever that sometimes things don’t happen according to MY plans because they are not meant to. It has become apparent to me that I still had unexpected things to learn and do while I am here.

The last 2 weeks, I have learned about love and compassion. Not about romantic love or about love for my family or for strangers or for my God, for me this has been about compassionate love. Love for others no matter what has come before in the relationship or what may come later, but about compassion and love in the moment.

Sometimes, I feel that we meet people who are placed in our life to teach us things, things about themselves, things about ourselves and things about humanity in general. Sometimes these people enter our lives and leave again quickly and sometimes it seems that despite the best efforts of both parties a bond is formed that is almost unbreakable. These relationships are not always easy; in fact, they can be a painful experience for all involved. It is from those experiences and those times of pain that I have learnt some of my greatest lessons about love.

These 2 weeks have been hard and sad for many reasons, some of which are my own, and some have been watching the pain and sadness of people that I care about.  There are so many people in my life who are facing sadness, disappointment and pain at this moment in time.  Last week I had the privilege and opportunity to be there for some very important people in my life in their time of sadness and pain and this week we were there together sharing a new sadness and pain. As hard as these experiences have been I am so thankful for the opportunity to have been there for the people I care about and for the love and support they and all of my friends and family have shown.

In loving memory of Jan and Pam.

P.s. I know that this has not been the most eloquent blog, and I am sure I will read it later and realise how much more I wanted to say. I am hoping that the next update will be much happier and more together.